march 09

I haven’t written much this month and the reason?  I’ve had little positive or funny things to write about and so I’ve spared you.  You’re welcome.  Also, the things that have been going on aren’t Internet-appropriate.  We’ve had loads of private family goings-on.  And finally, it’s all been so overwhelming that I’ve not been able to string two words together to describe it anyway.  There’s no way to talk about this without sounding whiny or like I’m complaining.  And I’m not whiny about it and I’m not complaining about it.  It is what it is and like any other difficult time in life, we’ll get through this, but in the meantime I’m not going to candy-coat what’s been going on and therefore I’ll remain silent.

Yesterday I went to get the mail and found two birthday cards, one of which was from my friends, J and L.  And inside was one of the coolest birthday presents I think I’ve received from a friend to date.  They are going to whisk me away to Seattle sometime in September and treat me to see the Broadway musical, Wicked <—linkyloo at the Paramount.  SO EXCITED.   I love having something to look forward to and this is a really fun thing to look forward to.  I haven’t been to a musical in…um…well, since Phantom of the Opera at Grady Gammage in Arizona.  (That was fabulous).

This birthday is different.  For one thing, I didn’t celebrate my usual birthday month. Normally I celebrate throughout the month but this year didn’t allow that.  But also, I just don’t care like I normally do.  For the first time ever I’m very detached from my birthday.  Maybe it’s getting older that does that.  Took me long enough seeing as how I’m 33 today.  I don’t know many adults who look forward to their birthdays like I have in the past.  I’ve had many the adult friend look at me a little funny when I get so excited about my birthday.  And you’re right – it could be entirely circumstantial, considering everything that’s been going on.  We were displaced for 5+ months, came home, got the news about my grandpa, I was home for a month and then I went to Arizona by myself for a month, got sick, came home, and three weeks later, family crisis on my husband’s side that still isn’t completely resolved.  Actually, two crises – another business related.  In the meantime Husband gets a new job and we have to adjust to that.  Then there’s a wedding that Husband was involved in, house guests, more sickness.  Husband is leaving for five days to see family and take care of some business and when he gets home on the 31st, we hope and pray that we can have just a couple months of normalcy.  Just living, taking care of regular old life for a while.  We both need the break.

So yes, this year, I kept forgetting my birthday was coming.  Today is just a regular old day.  I’m doing dishes, laundry, and paying bills.  And I’m okay with that.  And in the meantime, I get to look forward to seeing Wicked.  And hoping for some down time.